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My 300th Post

I realized that this post will be my 300th post! I started out my posts trying to innerstand this mad world and ended up creating something I never dreamed of: A cyber African family. I’m so grateful for all of you that have found my energy and permeated me with your insightfulness, your thoughts, your opinions, your stories, your help and your support. In the beginning I felt as if I was drowning. I was in a tumultuous spot in my life and needed an outlet. I went back to my first love, writing, and found refuge.

The funny thing about life is looking back and seeing where you came from, what sparked your change and what road you decided to travel. I was lucky. I had my awakening in a Chinese take-out restaurant and from there I couldn’t look back even if I tried. I began to notice things that I never knew were there before. Like how ALL black neighbourhoods:

Have a check cashing place

A fast food/ fried chicken joint

A liquor/ cigarette shop

A dirty laundromat

A hair care/wig shop owned by people who look nothing like us

No fresh greens/ organic food shops

A pawn shop

And a medical clinic that you would not bring your gerbil to

Jah gave me the ability to “see” past the lies, temptations and the fogginess at this precise moment because it was simply my time. I finally overstand that now. I’m grateful for the pain, the sorrow, the tears, the sleepless nights, the feelings of hopelessness because it prompted me to try and do better. Without my journey of near madness, I would have never been able to know who my enemy is, why he is here, why I am here and what needs to be done.

May I admit a secret?

A month ago, I was getting ready to go out. I glanced in the mirror and The Spirit told me to stop cutting my hair. The glance became a hard stare and I saw myself as a Ras; my head and shoulders covered with long, thick insane-looking hair cascading past my back. I almost didn’t recognize myself but it was indeed me. I saw my own vision of what I will become. I no longer question anything The Great Spirit tells me so I immediately gathered my shearers and put them in my cubby.

I’m awaiting more “instructions” from Her. As I grow, I feel more fulfilled. Funny thing is, the more I awaken from my sleep, the more I disconnect from this reality. The more I disconnect from this reality, the more I can spot the lies and half-truths and figure out why I am being mislead and how to counter it.

I hope that this journey has been/ will be fulfilling for all of you. Tell me, what have you learned from your journey into awakening? What areas do you feel you need to work on?

The Origin of White People

Dear Family,

You are the Original Peoples of this Universe. Mother Nature is you. Soil is you. Wind is you. Water is you. Plant life is you. Animal life is you. Do you now know why you are feared and hunted? The brainwashing MUST exist to keep you downtrodden, ignorant, foolish, flimsy of mind and body. You MUST be kept asleep so their evil can continue. As long as you are kept unaware, they will flourish in their plans for your extermination. The systematic destruction of YOU is the only way for them to survive.

Whites hate you because they are NOT you.

WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Awakening: The Final Installment of The Trilogy

Now that you know “The Plan” and you understand “The Fear“, let me present the final chapter, “The Awakening.” After you’ve been beaten down, discredited, used and abused, you’ll hit rock bottom. That may mean drugs, prison, depression…whatever…each of us has a “rock bottom”. Your realization will come from a peaceful place called acceptance. You’ll have no other choice but to accept that there was, is and always will be someone who will wish to see you fail in AmeriKlan.

You’ll watch as this country bends over backwards to accommodate other minorities by having them assimilate into “whiteness” while trying desperately to hold you down. You’ll see other minorities forsake their Mother Country, Mother Cuisine and Mother Tongue for the desperate need to become AmeriKlanized. You’ll watch as their children, who perhaps will be the same complexion as you, if not darker, call your children a nigger and ostracize them just as the parents have done to you.

You sit back and wonder, What’s going on? I thought we coloured folks were in the same boat according to “whiteness”. Why are they moving ahead while I’m still stuck? Then the awakening will happen. AmeriKlan will never accept you as one of them. Your purpose of servitude is no longer in effect. So you are no longer necessary. They would rather use another “inferior” to keep you downtrodden than to realize the cost of their mistakes and recognize you as a member of this country. You’ll think back to that job, your military service, your education and realize your entire life in this country has been based on lies.

This will blow your mind! You’ll swear it isn’t true. You’ll lose sleep wondering why you never saw it. And what to do now. Now we come to the final installment. After your revelation, you’ll understand that the black man / woman was never intended to achieve equality. You were never intended to ever be free. Your freedom and perpetual climb into “polite society” was a grave mistake. You were never supposed to assimilate. In fact, didn’t a little well-known president want to ship you home because the Negro cannot and will not ever belong here?

You’ll begin to realize that the black culture has been plagued on purpose with supremacist tools:

1. Public school education

2. The formation of ghettos

3. Drugs being distributed and pushed into your neighbourhoods

4. Low-wage jobs

5. Denial of loans

6. Redlining that still continues!

7. The media that tells you from birth that you are nothing

8. A carefully executed depression and recession designed to push you back into ghettos

9. Loss of pensions

10. The traps of the prison systems

Then you’ll think back to all the petty arguments you’ve had with other blacks about:

1. Skin complexion

2. Big screen TV’s

3. Who has the “better” house

4. Rivalry between countries

5. Money

6. Women / Men

7. Education

8. Upbringing

9. Looks and hair texture

10. Accomplishments

…And realize that it was all for naught.

Then the understanding will come into place that without black love, black solidarity and black assistance for one another, we’ll perish…..And that will be the most important factor in our black lives. It won’t be easy…many will fail for we are a weakened race. Slavery did a mind-job on us and the horrifying results are visible in the form of fatherlessness, crime, lack of education, drugs and gangs, self-hatred and the killing of our own by our own.


My brothers and sisters, the next time you feel the urge to hate your family, fight it. The next time you feel the urge to brag how exquisite you are in comparison to your family, don’t. The next time one of us needs a helping hand, lend it. By contributing to the black family globally, we can and will conquer white supremacy. Join groups and tell others about the plan and the fear. Educate others. Let them educate you. After all we’ve been through, we’re still here. I think that’s a true testament to our strength.

Any thoughts?

 

****Additional statements****

To all blacks that read my blog. Mary’s and Someguy’s comment prompted me to tell you something:

You can’t defeat your enemy without understanding your enemy. Here are a few books to read on them.

1. Mein Kampf by the one and only Adolf Hitler

2. The American Dilemma by Gunnar Myrdal

3. The Protocols of the Learned Elders of Zion by Sergiei Nilus (I ordered it after reading many excerpts on the web) 

There are perhaps hundreds more…but these that I’ve listed had a profound effect on me and my understanding of why I’m in the “position” I am in despite education and profession. Please read them. Familiar yourself with them. But focus on us.

 

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