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Confessions of a White Racist: Chronicle Three

I wasn’t going to post this. I was about to delete it when my blogger buddy contacted me. I told him of the entire incident and he urged me to post it, “Black people need to become more aware of what’s happening when we try to become successful in this got damn country. Post it.” So this morning when I got another letter, I was awed at the level of anguish I had caused since I opened my humble shop on Etsy.

A letter arrived for me in my shop’s mailbox.

Yes, my shop’s mailbox. Not my blog where dialogue is encouraged, not my personal email address, which some of you have…my store. My place of business that I created just for the black family. This was waiting for me:

Reguarding your blog

Hey Lisa,I couldnt find your e-mail address anywhere, but i saw you had an etsy, so i thought i would write you here, i hope you dont mind. Also, my apologies in advance for typos typos, I’m writing from my iPad. Also you will see that after the first paragraph this isn’t spam, but indeed regarding your blog Diaryofanegress that I stumbled upon tonight.I was surfing the web and one search led to another and somehow I ended up on the tragic story about the murder of Ilan Halimi, a handsome young Jewish man who was tortured and killed by an anti-semitic gang called “the Gang of the Barbarians. The leader of the group, Youssouf Fofana, was black. His parents were from Africa, but he was born in France. Again, one search led to another and I ended up searching two things… Why do blacks hate jews and why do people still hate jews. I just didn’t get it, this race is faced with so much prejudiced today and yet they don’t seem to be violent and most jews I’ve met have been lovely people. I did learn that Jews did enslave blacks durning the slave era, so that gives me one explanation, but it still doesn’t explain why many other people of different races discriminate against them. Anyways, I saw that you posted on someone’s blog and unfortunately I lost the link, but I loved whatever you said and it made me think, so I decided to visit your blog. You said, ….

Your posts first intrigued me, but the further I read, the further I just didn’t feel good about reading your posts. I loved reading new things i didn’t know about blacks. I think as a society, everyone should learn more about each other. The thing is, I first thought your blog was a fun informational and unique blog, but i soon realized it was not only full of anger and hate, but that it was a racist white-hate blog. You are obliviously intelligent and I commend you for educating yourself about your ethnic and cultural history and current state of politics, but you may not be as educated as I think you are if you think it’s okay to group whites all in one category. Yes whites are racist and so are blacks and so are Chinese and so on. Yes blacks were once slaves, but that’s not every single white person on earth’s fault. I think the biggest problem as to why many whites are prejudice is because blacks like you are angry and therefore are racist right back. Look, I get and know how whites are because I’m not white… But if I have had any problems with blacks, my biggest problem would be that many seem to feel entitled to do whatever and say whatever they want no matter how it may make someone feel. Growing up I was always uncomfortable around black men, never black women, I had a black besitie. From a very young age black men have always hit on me more than any other color of man, but it’s not just hitting on me, it’s that they harassed me for not being interested. I still remember when I was in undergrad, this will stick with me for life, a black guy (not a student) was trying to hustle his CDs to everyone. He started following me trying to be funny with small talk. I was in a hurry, so I first giggled a little then just kept walking. He grabbed my shoulder and was like ‘woah baby stop.’ I still was semi-polite at this point and pushed his hand away and kept walking. He started screaming “blood is coming down your skirt bitch. Blood is coming down your skirt ! bitch.&q uot; I was mortified, and no I was not bleeding. Most black men who have hit on me respond in the same way he did. It took me a long time to feel comfortable around black men and because of this I never wanted to date a black man, but I had to say that not every black man on earth is like the black men that have hurt me in some sense.

Your “Interracial Agenda” and “21 Truths White People don’t want to hear” posts disgusted me. I come from an interracial background and I love my race, my culture, my parents, and me. How would you feel if those 21 things you wrote about whites was turned around onto blacks. You probably wouldn’t care because you are angry, but someone, some innocent black person my read it and it may hurt them leading them to be angry like you. Imaging if I wrote a list about black women with blonde weaves? Or do you hate them to for liking blonde hair? #13. You really don’t feel as guilty as you want everyone to believe you do…. Well you don’t either so I don’t really think you should be a hypocrite. Blacks aren’t perfect either. No one is, and racism will never go away when people, white and black, like you antagonize the situation. Racism is probably worst than ever because its taboo. Whites whisper the word black, it’s sad. If whites say one thing about blacks, they’re racist, yet many but not all blacks can say whatever they want and feel guilt free and entitled.

Anyways, I love my President Barak Obama, I love Beyonce and Nikki Manaj, and I love my black best friend. But you must hate all four of those people as they live in a ‘white’ world, use ‘white’ propaganda, and are friends with other ‘whites’ right? I hope you don’t take offense to this email… In fact I’ve never cared enough to ever read more than one post of a bloggers blog yet alone ever write to one. Like I said, I think you are smart, but I think you should broaden socially. What you are doing is good, you are speaking your mind, but hating will only bring more anger to you and more hate to others. Your book bio says “I am a black woman living in the Divided States of AmeriKlan dedicated to conquering the system of racism/ white supremacy.” One racism and white supremacy are two very different things and two now can you be dedicated to conquering the system racism when you seem to be racist your self? Or maybe you just want be be the Queen of racists? Don’t get mad, don’t be offended, just think. Having your buttons pushed and not getting angry, but rather rational and eger to forward your cause intelligently will only make you stronger as an activist.

Only good thoughts and wishes for you. —X (name removed)

Ps Todd Boyd was my professor in grad school. You should research him, he taught me a lot, and he doesn’t hate white people one bit… What he hates is being categorized.

Now read this…

How utterly typical….left to your own devices, and you wretched little n1ggers are STILL blaming White human beings for the problems that YOU yourselves cause on a daily basis. This is why you receive no respect whatsoever….there is no hope for the n1gger species. Filthy, chimp animals, the entire lot of you, and it’s all YOUR OWN fault. Not ours.
We wiped our hands clean of your filth long, long ago… you’re own your own now, n1ggers. Well, except for that ever so necessary welfare, food stamps, obamaphones, free public housing, etc. and all the other free n1gger handouts that you all receive for doing NOTHING, while still complaining, whining, begging for more from human beings.
Never bite the White Hand that feeds you….it might just stop feeding you one day. N1gger punks.

“5. No matter how big your house, how fancy your car and how expensive your jewelry, whites are not EVER going to be impressed with you or have respect for you. To them, you are just another nigger.” EXACTLY. Nothing more, not even human f%$^ing beings….

Whites don’t envy you, we don’t pity you. To be honest, we don’t care at all of you anymore. It is YOU that is destroying OUR country. Don’t like it here? Leave.
N1ggers are by far the most worthless animals on the face of this planet.

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So, let me ask you the burning question: Is this all it really takes to unravel them?

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